Secrets of Your Cells

The voyage that led me to bridge the realm of the biological cell with the realm of the soul was a trek that required the repeated breakdown of my ego and beliefs. It began more than forty years ago when I obtained a PhD in biochemistry. Back then, I was intrigued by the chemicals of life. They were identifiable, objective and quantifiable; plus, I believed that if we could locate chemical abnormalities, we could fix anything in the human body. Later I pursued immunology and haematology, which took me into the cellular universe.

As I explored cells under the microscope, my experience became more than cerebral – I was enchanted by what I was seeing. I began photographing that magical microscopic world of living human cells.

Everyone who is seriously involved in the pursuit of science becomes convinced that a spirit is manifest in the laws of the universe – a spirit vastly superior to that of man.

Albert Einstein.

Biology and miracles

While the world of cells captivated me in a mysterious way I didn’t yet fully understand, I was very much in an intellectual mode. I thought that unless something could be measured and proven, it wasn’t real. It was an illusion – if not a delusion. In my mind, analysis and statistics told the true story; there could be no ambivalence about the conclusions. However, the more experience I gained through my research, the more cracks appeared in my rigidly held convictions. I saw people die who ‘shouldn’t have’ according to their biological measurements. I met children with aggressive leukemia cells (cancer of the blood) who contradicted the predicted course of their disease and were living much longer than they ‘should have’. People didn’t fit so nicely into statistical categories and prognostications. They couldn’t be easily measured like a test tube of defined chemicals.

One eighty-four-year-old woman, Marjorie, with acute leukemia stopped responding to chemotherapy. Her doctors gave her just a few months to live. Marjorie, however, had other plans: a grandchild was graduating from college and her sixtieth wedding anniversary was coming up. She needed to stay alive for these events. And she did – without chemo. In fact, she remained with the important people in her life for two more years.

This made no sense to me. I was stymied. What kept her alive. My shell opened just enough to realize that healing, life, and death could not be placed simply into an analytical framework, and I could no longer depend solely on the comfort of scientific measurement and predictability.

Then the father of a boy with leukemia asked me to photograph his son’s cancer cells to aid in a visualization practice. The boy would imagine each healing cell as a kind of Pac-Man who sought out and destroyed the cancer cells just as it ate pellets in the arcade game. This was a time when visualization and imagery were found only at the fringes of mainstream medicine, but the concept took hold in my imagination. I thought that if kids could see what healthy cells looked like – and those cells were bigger and stronger than the cancer cells – they might be able to use their minds to heal their bodies. Sometimes I would suggest that they imagine their cancer cells as dust and their healing system as a vacuum cleaner.

So I began giving weekly ‘inner space’ slideshows at the clinic. I simply pointed out healthy and abnormal cells and what the molecules were – with no further explanation. It became clear to me that to the children it didn’t matter what these images meant to a scientist.

There was something inherent in them that people of all ages enjoyed and that many experienced as transformative.

Divine design

I formed a special bond with a five-year-old boy named Alvaro, who asked to see the slides over and over again. I sometimes invited him and his sister to share the weekend with me and my children, and we would sit together and draw cells or go to the park. Then suddenly, Alvaro began to go downhill after being in remission for more than a year. His speech faltered and walking became difficult. What could I do for him now?

I remembered learning a Gestalt psychology strategy in my own therapy sessions to express difficult feelings (hitting a pillow, yelling) and was inspired to try it with Alvaro. I asked if something was upsetting him and was surprised when he immediately answered that he was really angry at his stepfather. He told me he believed his real dad had been pushed out of the home by this man. In my innocence – untrained as a Gestalt therapist – I told him to show how angry he was by pounding on the sofa. He didn’t hesitate and beat on the sofa pillows for quite some time.

A few days later, Alvaro began to improve. While it could have been the new meds he had been given that caused the change, to me, it seemed a miracle. I could no longer be certain that it was only the medication that turned his disease process around. This marked another major turning point in my thinking and beliefs about medicine. It was at this time, fearing Alvaro’s death, that I sought the help of a clinical psychologist. During my first therapy appointment, the psychologist lit some sage to purify the space, something I had never experienced before. I immediately felt more clarity and relaxation than I had in a long time. It was clear that this man was more than meets the eye – he was, in fact, a shaman. He brought me to a deep place of trust, and I knew I needed his gidance in the big issues I was struggling with, which my scientific training offered no context for. I saw him as a therapist for several years before I committed to a year-long shamanic apprenticeship.

My work with this shaman was a true turning point. He helped me reframe my concepts about what healing is and the mental and spiritual dimensions that foster it. By going deep into my own healing journey,

I began to explore my own role as a healer. During that potent apprenticeship year, I made my lifelong aspiration to bridge science and spirit in the healing process.

Influenced by my shamanic studies, as I witnessed living cells’ heroic efforts to defend against danger, I began to see them as more than programmed tissue. They were holy. They were evidence of God’s handiwork, or a divine design. I now accepted that the invisible world was more than the cells and molecules I had studied in books and thought I knew; this world encompassed spirit, wonder, and the soul.

From Secrets of Your Cells, © 2013 by Sondra Barrett, published by Sounds True.

SECRETS OF YOUR CELLS
by Sondra Barrett

An extraordinary voyage awaits within the pages of this book, which introduces us to a new way of understanding the inner universe of our cells. A biochemist and teacher of mind-body medicine, who also describes herself as a cellular anthropologist, Dr Barrett interprets this mysterious microscopic realm for us, showing how the origins and forms of our cells may have contributed to human traditions, values and even art! Click here to buy.